No one ever chooses me. I try my very best to be stable, thoughtful, caring, loving, encouraging, loyal, and dependable. Yet somehow it still isn’t enough. It is never enough. I am not enough. My heart is broken and I do not have the energy to fix it yet again. I just wanted someone to pick me and stay by my side no matter what.
At the beginning, you asked one thing of me. “Talk to me, please talk to me if anything is ever wrong. I do not ever want you to sit on anything that would make you resent me. I promise that I will always talk to you.” Here we are three years later, you silently bottled up and said to me “I resent you.”
I wish you had talked to me early and often; I wish you had not given up on us; I wish you did not break my heart into the ground. You always knew that I would do anything for you and that I loved you unconditionally. I have always given you everything I had, and I wish it was enough. Now, you are asking me to find peace in a life without you.
I wish you never made me fall in love with you and asked me to build a life together.
One day, maybe soon, maybe years from now, you’ll realise that the relationship wasn’t your whole world; it was just nice to share your world with that person for a little while.
